Regrets a waste of time and plans will change, some for the best, some for the worst, you know you can't always get your way. So worried about what's next, you lost today.

I think i'll grow up to be a person who hates this world, who hates his friends, who hates reality, who hates truth. All i wanted was to be accepted... I knew it all along but i can't coax myself forever

No turning back

They keep asking me to go back, my family, my friends. But is it worth it? I don't know, i honestly don't know. But if there's one thing i know, there's no way i can turn back. Either i start afresh or .. i continue my journey to hell. So many many questions and uncertainties.. hais fml. Sometimes, i just feel like going back, but, if so , then which is giving up and which is persevering? Who am i? Who am i to judge? Why am i here? Why am i so proud and arrogant? Who am i really, please tell me now

A new journey ahead

Ap has just ended, and now the sec 4's are gone, with the sec 3 ( Batch 39 ) stepping up.. i wonder how life's gonna be like after this man, i really wonder..

And all i wanted was just to belong....

Bros

You know they always say about how being a true friend is about staying with your friend through high's and low's? I've seen an example of brotherhood, and i want to be a TRUE brother, not a fake one. God, give me tests, i need to be stronger..

School

School only teaches you how to survive, not how to live life

Procrastination

I have tuition homework due tomorrow at 10:30 and im still awake.. really gotta change this attitude of mine -,-

Watched many random videos on youtube and got kinda bored after a while..

Thinking of a new haircut.. hmm

Remedy

I think i need it. We all do.

Dreams

I heard from some source that a real dream is a dream that cannot be achieved. Makes quite a bit of sense. Imagine what our lives would be after achieving those dreams or goals of ours. But on the other hand, if that is true, then what are we trying to achieve now? Fake dreams?

So many questions, yet so little answers..

People

Yes, we are all people. You me, even your creepy neighbor that eats cow eyeballs for lunch is a person. And as a person, we all have different personalities. But the question here is, what makes up a "personality"? Is it your preferences ? What you like to wear? What kind of girl/boy you like? But what if someone else, too, has that same liking for turtle neck shirts? What if he or she too likes to suck a spoon full of peanut butter? Or is what makes us different our humanly appearance? Honestly, this has been on my mind for quite a while. What makes a person, a person? Ethan, a Ethan? John, a John?

First post

Hi, Ethan behind the screen. This is my first post and this blog is just to express my inner - judgmental - self which i don't normally show to others. For me, i think myself as someone who is boring. Yeah, boring. I don't really talk much unless im with a group of friends. I am a proud Josephian and NPCC cadet. Play basketball and when i feel like it, guitar. 14 this year and i'm very short.. anyways, this is me. How ordinary.

Just an ordinary boy, in an extraordinary race. A race for..?